Listless and lethargic .. and fuzzy in the head .. walking around in a state where nothing seems to attract your attention .. cannot remember where I did come from, or where I went .. normally awake to the progress made in reaching particular location, I ask in a daze from the person sitting next to me, have we reached ? Even when coming back home … keep sitting in the car not realizing that the wife or the kids waits for me to emerge, to give my salutation .. sad state !
But funnily enough there is strong desire to complete task and feel useful even in these restraining circumstances .. perform duty, catching up with family and importantly the connection with my pc and eventually comes to this page.. I am certain if the wife were to learn of my present, she would burst a blood vessel ..
It is but now an irresistible favourite recipe almost, that brings pangs of hunger on learning that time has cometh for us to talk with each other ..
A million things to do tomorrow … all leading up to the an answer from somewhere … say no to one and bear the consequences of the others … say yes to one and bear the consequences of the others … for some reason however, try to fulfil everybody desire and commands is an essential goal of each day. There seems to be a certain genuineness in their requests every time … time does not come again and I guess it makes sense to put on record what one feels .. though I wonder what it is that all the world wants me to do - I have indeed and will keep putting in all in a zillion times …No matter the demands supply will nevr stop from coming.
I do not wish to leave you, but I know I must if I need to survive tomorrow’s onslaught ..
Do forgive if i heard somebody feeling with this … and hopefully there shall be a new shinning tomorrow and a greater sense of communication ..
My love as ever …
DiL
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