Just blah, blah

I stretch out my affection and love to all. I stretch out to give as much as I can possibly give. I stretch out to those that despise me, hate me, but still show love. I stretch out to envelope all that remains beyond ; places I could not have imagined to reach. I stretch out to seek, to gain, to learn and to acquire that, which I may not have had the intelligence to gather.

The stimulus required by any creative person comes largely through disappointment, anger, lack of facility and understanding. So what does one contain. One contains the factual moment when there is correction and disagreement with my thought process or creativity. That is most essential - to be criticised, corrected and demanded of. Ego and self claimed importance has not been my forte. Many others do it and do it well. I cannot. They tell me it is a mistake in today’s world, and I shall remain adamant. It frustrates them, it elevates me. It would do well for me to sneak away and be with the environs, in my own thought and solitude. It would annoy and cause injury to many that think otherwise.

There is no pretence here to build humility, a feature that is now often attached to some of the most non required epithets, in my description. I know my worth, as must I should, and nothing and nobody can ever have change what have i done in the past. But when obeisance comes with heart, that is what needs to be accepted and given attention to, without any hesitation ..Like dad’s words of encouragement, mom’s blessing, brothers and sister supporting hands, unconditional love from kids, company of a faithful and understandable wife, friendship of others...

There are many hands that come forth to help, assist.  But how do I wish for my association. That should be prime, and nothing else. In the boxing ring you are the master and the fighter … alone !! That interests me. I would rather make my own bed each and every early morning, than give the burden of this task to the ‘help’ in the house. No matter how menial the job, it is the same human element that shall eventually do it. Now, classified as a breed which through centuries has not moved away from the horrors of such slavery.

Again just vague thoughts till going to bed... don’t mind my blah blah...

As always my love to all...

DiL.